I often wondered how it might be. Those last few moments of life. The light they say, or at least some have said, glows faintly at the end of a tunnel. As you travel through the tunnel the light becomes brighter until finally you pass on into your next level of existence. You die.
I had expected to be alone when my time came for this moment, but as it happened I was crossing the street, my dear child next to me, with Rex, our sweet little golden doodle, trotting by our side. We never saw the car, a large black SUV, as it careened around the blind curve to our left and plowed into us. Suddenly the bright Sunday afternoon turned to blackness.
There we were, all three of us, standing side by side in a dense fog of semi-consciousness. Faintly in the distance we could see just a hint of light. So dim. So far away. And yet there. We began to walk toward it and as we did the vague image of a cavern, a tunnel of sorts, began to take shape around us. We felt no pain, no sensation at all really, only the sight of the light ahead, growing brighter with each step we took.
Suddenly my young child stopped and slipped her hand from my grasp. “I can’t go on mom, I’ve got to go back.” But I could not go back. It was as though what heart I had was violently ripped from within me. Tearfully we parted ways as my daughter turned and walked back in the direction we had come, gradually disappearing in the fog with Rex trotting faithfully behind. I turned. Alone I continued on my journey towards the light.